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poets I’m reading: Missing Person by A H Jerriod Avant

The Boston Review is publishing a poem a day for National Poetry Month in the USA. I couldn’t go past Missing Person by A H Jerriod Avant, a breathtaking piece that pulls you further in with each couplet.

In this article in Brooklyn Poets, you’ll find an interview with the poet and another equally moving poem about the poet’s father, called Unusual Tightrope.


Missing Person – A H Jerriod Avant

Last time home, I saw a pair of shoes tucked into a corner

and it looked as if they hadn’t been moved since he was here.


The dust on them sacred and still, when I’m home, my mind

labors, in the dust. It’s been 6 years but I say it hasn’t happened.


Though the day persists, he’s still tucked into a cloud tucked into

a tree in the back of a long black car and my throat won’t


let my heart through no matter how flat my epiglottis falls. All about

the day breaking is clean so why this horror? A nightmare in my


wake. A black silk-blend pressed smooth, upholstering silent

emotion, boldly not a dent on him. We dare name this night


with its sun out high, hanging by its hands where the room was

too small to be holding so much ache. Our worlds now captured


by a piece of forest carved tightly, hinges now let us in or shut us out

but they fail to shut him in. A tree uprooted. The one I fell from,


and I’m the only one to find him showing up in my day. Meetings,

business trips scattered him and I knew he’d be back but not


back so soon or in this form and the way I am nervous about it

all, if I am losing it and if he’s gone how is he here with me?


The dining room table, an altar where we open all bodies, either

give or take, how his form sits in cheer, naked torso and you


are to act as if his generous breasts aren’t private parts. I don’t

see how I see what I’m seeing. My eyes shaping a silhouette


of the man who raised me as the sun raises all of our sleepy

shadows. What gives when two realms refuse to budge


and won’t make that sway completely to either world? Imagination

is a long, worn, leather belt spread around my only hope; this


yearning for Pops to adjourn a meeting he’s not in, get home

to build dinner around venison; a staple holding us full. The dates


leading up, I never get wrong. Their quick succession still stings.

It seems I’m always in a reality I shouldn’t be in. Somehow


our home preserves certain fingerprints. I map them and become

bored with the maps of this world. I would abandon one realm


for another when I watch him swing into the driveway and catch

his breath from the day, before exiting the vehicle. I watch him


honk the horn before he’s honking it. Passes me a crisp fifty-

dollar bill because I’m there. Hands me baskets of new


pecans and muscadines we’ll use. I hear him telling me how

I’m trying to split the log against the grain and how that’ll


wear me out the same way lying will. The same way alchohol

will, my liver and not cleaning the yard will eat at the lawnmower’s


blades. I got a thing for fumbling through couplets. I hear him

asking have I talked to Momma and he knows I have and what


I’m about to say. How I’m knocking on the window of this other

realm, begging to sing my confusion until he understands me.


I’m eleven hundred and fifty-four miles from home, farther from

him and still, we continue this secret, of running into each other.